These few works are enough,
If not these words,
If not this breath, this sitting,
this opening to the life we have refused
again and again and again,
I’ve started to practice yoga (and life) a little bit different lately. I’ve started to realize how much I identify with my thoughts. I let my mind go wild and I love to look at the quality of my thinking, analyze and create a lot of meaning around it. There’s a part of me that loves constructing a deep meaning around everything. I believe that’s ok – the meaning we make is more important than whatever may actually be happeining. But I also believe there is SO much more to me than thoughts. To all of us.
So what’s changed? In the past month I’ve committed deeply to never leave myself behind again. To not sacrifice or desert my own inner wisdom and knowing, my opinions, my self-love, my personality or anything else for the sake of making someone else comfortable or to gain approval or love. And because I deeply believe that the way you do one thing is the way you do everything, I am practicing this commitment on my yoga mat.
What I’ve noticed is that when I let my mind wander and I follow my thoughts, I am leaving my body behind. Deserting the sensations I feel in myself, the breath that flows unconsciously, and the only truest moment that exists – the now. So this is my practice: who cares what the thoughts say – good, bad, comfortable, uncomfortable, mean, nice, angry, happy, whatever. It doesn’t matter right now.
I courageously thank my mind for doing a great job and gently put all thoughts away on a shelf. They aren’t important right now. For now, my practice is to be intensely conscious of the moment, of myself, all parts of me.
Of course my mind wanders, but rather than deconstructing whether it’s a valid thought, I just breathe and notice what else is going on: every step, every movement, every moment.
You can have it all. Stay with all parts of yourself – don’t leave anything behind in favor of your thoughts. Your thinking brain is perfect, but it’s not you – you, my dear, are so much more.
Music is one of the most powerful ways I release my thoughts + connect to the moment. This playlist guided my flow this week – perhaps it can guide yours.
Yoga Playlist: Setting Thoughts on a Shelf
Chopping The Woods – East Forest
Shake It Loose – Dolphin Boy
Beatific – East Forest
Istanbul Dubphonics (Drumspyder Remix) – Shaman’s Dream
Indian Summer – Jai Wolf
Magnets – Disclosure, Lorde
Hold On – Alabama Shakes
Tourist – Julian Casablancas
Move On – Garden City Movement
Twirl Me (feat. The polish Ambassador & Ayla Nereo) – Wildlight
Let’s Go Away For A while – The Beach Boys
Hold On – East Forest
You Know – East Forest